ATTENTION! THIS IS AN EXTREMELY LONG BLOG.
Hey everybody! :) Wow. Been a while since I've been on here. Let's just say, even though I didn't have a Spring Break, I still made it seem like I had one anyways. Haha but I still went to school and errythang! I've just been going out alot and yeah. But no more again. Everybody's back to school again. Total whack status. I've been kicking with MS.5 lately cause they're dynamite status. And of course, my WG<3. I love those two girls to death. And gosh, the way we spent the last day of Spring break, was just fantasterrific! I love MS.5 &WG to the maxed out extreme! "We ain't no muthafuckin yackstas! " Hehehe. So hm, how have I been lately? Been alright.
The blog before this one, was April 1st. And after I blogged, I left to go kick it with MS.5 for the first time. Gosh they kept me too busy. Spending time with them is so fun. Then now that Spring Break's done, I'm back blogging. And now I'm here blogging tryna let yall know that I'm glad I met MS.5 and I love them! And WG<3 too! By the way, WG's theme song; Destiny's Child -Girl. I love you girls! So much. Okay, I've been talking about them too much. Lol.
So yeah, anyways, sometime during Spring Break, April 9th I think? Yeah, that was a Saturday. I went to Disneyland with my mother, father, Milly & Doy. Jamie was supposed to go. Stupid doctor! Ugh! But anyways. It was soooo 'fantasmic'! Right Milly? Hehe. Disneyland is the happiest place on earth. Crazy shit. It gave me &Milly those little chills, the ones that make you feel like a littel girl again! Haha oh gosh. And like Milly said, I 'got tiggered out' at Disneyland. I bought like, Tigger everything. I guess you could say he's my favorite character now. Cause you know, reminds me alot of my Tiger. And boy, ain't nothing there at Disneyland that comes freaking cheap. The price of our lunch &dinner put together is just. Wow. I coulda gone shopping with that! Shooot. But we was mighty hungry so yeah it's all good. It's okay to spend a lil over the top once in a while right?
Okay, my camera was just my close bestfriend during Spring Break. I had it with me everywhere I went. I'll post pictures only from Disneyland though. Lol cause the other pictures are only for MS.5 &WG's eyes. Yeahp, exclusive shit homie! So yeah, if you are a member of MS.5 or WG, I can send you the folder of our pictures, buddies!
Mmkay, here's pics from Disneyland:
Nuclear boobies! Lol. I was bored, okay?!
Milly asleep.
Doy asleep.
Oh gosh how I wanted that humungo thang! It was like 100 bucks though! I'd speak for my mother. NO! Lol.
The Tigger I got. Not all that big. But hey, atleast it's something! Hehe.
Waiting in line for 'Honey I shrunk the audience'
Mi madre &me.
Dildizzoy & I looking gay.
My father dearest &me.
My mom. Hahaaa
Yay Tigger!
Tigger and me! Yay!
Me, Tigger &Milly. Hehe
Pimp ass picture. Lol.
Me, Eeyore &Milly. Keke
Smoochie, smoochie! Pooh bear!
Me and Doy in line for The Haunted Mansion.
See our faces? Tryna hide our big ass grins? We felt like little kids dude. Lol.
We liked the background.
Really, we did.
Told you.
Now you believe us? Lol.
Is it your loverboy Milly?! Lol jk.
Don't ask. I don't know either. Haha.
See BABY TIGER on my litle cute ass handbag!? Yay! I just had to get that.
Daddy, Mommy, &Daughter.
Us again. By the way, without my gay ass brother.
Just the two of em.
Random.
It was my mom who told me to pose like that!
I was aboutta wink. But the picture got taken already.
Cuddling with my Tigger doll on our way home.
I had a great time there. So anyways. Hm.
Guess what guys? Tiger came back home to me. I love you so much baby. Well maybe things are still bumpy like always. But I guess that's how things are always gonna be. I'd rather be going through this than not have him at all. Trust me, you didn't know how miserable I was when he left me. You never will know. The close homies saw how messed up I was. They might say they understand how I felt, but in reality, they didn't. It was just. I don't know. I don't wanna sound like some middle schooler trying to say she's inlove and that she wants to die cause her true love left her. Even though it kinda felt like that, I promise this shit ain't no infatuation phase or what so ever. First loves are always hard to get over right? This is the longest I've ever stuck around for somebody. And he's just the one who's given me a different and a good, better feeling than all the typical guys I've dated in the past. And I'm telling you, I'd lower my standards to raise this boy's. That's how much I love him. If you know me like you say you do, you know I don't take shit from nobody. I'm like, the strong independent Aika. But with this guy, it cuold go any way he wants it. I've taken all the shit I can take from this guy from day 1 and I still do. And that's when I know it's love. Cause I don't hate him one bit. Not even a tad bit. Not even a pinchfull. Nothing. Yeah I get hurt, but I guess that's always a part of it. Most people tell me, love is when you put up with someone's bullshit no matter what, give all the chances you can, and find out if you still feel the same. It's a matter of giving yet asking for nothing in return. It all turns out to be unconditional love. And that's what I have for Tiger. This fool could do me dirty all he wants. And I won't hate him one bit. And I seriously don't care what you say. Yeah, Aika's real young to even feel this shit. Yeah , blahh blahh whatever. But you know my ass, I would so never talk about someone like this. Like put our shit on blast like this unless it really was something. Yeah, those things during middle school. Hello, that was middle school?! That's seriously when I consider my head like super young even though it hasn't been so long ago. I mean dude, lol, that shit was puppy love. Relationships only lasting for a week or two. And the shit I'd do for Tiger, never did I do it for them. And just all the shit we went through. Tiger really changed me. He matured my ass up good! Haha. Okay I shouldn't be talking about it no more. Cause seriously, believe what you wanna believe. Infatuation or real love. It's up to you. But I suggest you make me feel what I wanna feel. Lol. But yeah, the way I feel everything inside. I love this guy. He's my first love. And if I was to ever leave him, he'll always have a part of me. And he knows we'll always have something for each other. His ass knows that damn well. Cause fate always has and always will bring us back together.. just like it did once again. Thanks for coming back home babe. I love you.
So, to explain Tiger in one word, and one word only:
BITTERSWEET.
- Has got the bad things, yet also the good ones.
Couldn't have found a better word.
Hm, everybody prolly already knows this song. I don't care. But I just gotta put most of the words from this song on my blog. I can just totally relate. But I don't mean the song, cause it's talking about leaving the guy. Oh no, no, I can't do that to my baby.
How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
I thought maybe if I started prayin'
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein' done
Why are we are so hardheaded when we're in love
I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while you're in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call me, when I get mad
you're buying me gifts
Thinkin' it's going to solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone to the pictures that I saw (you know what I saw)
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I'm takin all I can take
Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just too blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin' you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should do
I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And every time that we break up
We turn around and make up
Bravo Destiny's Child for making a good song. As you can see, I didn't put all the words cause I don't mean it all. I put only the ones I kinda mean and I really mean. Another song which is so freaking perfect for my situation is 'Rashad feat. Jadakiss and Sheek - Sweet Misery (remix)'. That's so perfect. But I couldn't find the lyrics for the remix so yeah. It's like every word is so perfect! No lie. Maybe I'll put it on my xanga sometime. Not sure.
But anyways. I got so carried away with this. I apologize for such a long blog. If you're reading up till now, which I doubt, but if you are, oh my gosh! Not that you give a shit about my life. But thank you so much for your time!
Maybe this has been too much. Hah. I shall part now I guess. Bye guys. If you read this all, thanks so much for your time.
God. My family. My friends. &of course, Tiger. <3
Till next time everyone! | 
I love reunions!
JAM [ Jennifer. Aika. Milly ] had a reunion last night too!
